All posts by Abby M.

I’m Being Bullied

You walk around. Second questioning everything you do. Trying to not do the wrong thing but desperately trying to stay under the radar. It seems as if no matter how hard you try, they always find something wrong with you. You might not even know why they started targeting you’€¦or maybe you do. Regardless you never would have imagined it escalating to this. Where you don’€™t want to go out in the morning. Where you just want to hide under the covers of your safe bed’€¦where you can get away from the torment. Well. At least you used to be safe there. Tired Of Holding This InUntil the tormenting followed you home, in your head. Now you just lay there replaying every comment, every lie, and every attack. At first, you were able to ignore them and what they said. It didn’€™t stick. You didn’€™t allow yourself to believe what they said, but as time went on you got weak and were tired of fighting back and allowed yourself to start entertaining the lies. You entertained them for so long that you maybe even began to believe them.

You walk around and feel as if everyone has heard the awful things that have been said about you. You slowly became more and more emotionally defensive and have begun to push away those who you care about. You try your hardest to not let anyone know how much it hurts. But the truth is’€¦ it does. You feel alone and as if you will never be good enough. Never be good enough for them. Never be good enough for God. Never good enough for yourself.

Feeling like you are all on your own is one of the scariest feelings. Especially when you feel as if no one cares. But the truth is, we care. We care about you and your struggle’€¦and we want to help. We have people at the RemedyLIVE chat center who want to talk with you today. All you have to do is go to the homepage and click on the ‘€œchat with a SoulMedic now’€ button. Chat with us today and release the struggle that you have been keeping inside of you.

I Hate My Body

Dinner is being cooked in your home. As soon as you walk in you smell it, and immediately you know that it is your favorite. So what do you do? You indulge, maybe slightly stuffing yourself but hey, it’€™s your favorite. After dinner you check out the freezer, and what do you find? Ice cream. Yum. You take an average size scoop, go sit on the couch, and enjoy some Netflix while you are eating it. It’€™s just about time to go to bed so you go up to you room after your satisfying night.

When you get to your room’€¦ immediately the mood changes. You glance at the mirror and notice your pants are a little tighter than they were when you first bought them. And when you look at your shirt it doesn’€™t seem to fit as loose as you pictured it did in your head. Gradually the lies begin to flood in. You’€™re fat. You’€™re ugly. No one will love you.

As they come, it becomes harder to fight them. You slowly begin to believe them and entertaining the idea of them being truth. You think back to this afternoon and the food you ate. Did you really need to eat THAT? Did you really need to eat that MUCH? Did you really need to eat at all?

You are unhappy with your body. You want it to change, if only you were a little thinner or your legs were a little smaller’€¦then you would be happy. You realize if you want to see a change you have to make one, you brainstorm some ideas. You could wake up early before school and go to the gym, eat 3 carrots for breakfast, skip lunch, go to the gym again after school, and then eat dinner’€¦ but if you aren’€™t seeing results maybe you should cut back on dinner. But then your parents will notice’€¦ and then an awful thought forces its way into your mind. You could make yourself puke after.

You begin to try it and once you start you can’€™t stop. You desperately just want to feel good about yourself, to have the body of your dreams’€¦but you don’€™t feel like you are getting any closer and you so badly just want to enjoy your favorite meal again without the guilt of feeling like you messed up. You consider stopping and going back to your normal routine but you feel stuck, caught in this overwhelming darkness of never being good enough. You feel so alone.

Here at RemedyLIVE we know the danger of feeling alone. We know the pain of not feeling good enough and the fear of being stuck. But we have also found hope, freedom, and the realized the importance of sharing your struggle with a trusted adult. We care about you and want to help you find the freedom we have. Chat with us today!

When Do I Walk Away From The Relationship?

The relationship began and it was great. You couldn’€™t get enough of each other. Spending every amount of free time together, constantly texting, and snap chatting throughout the day. Gradually the other person started to become a part of your life. Introducing them to your friends, your family you were so excited to start this new season. Having someone to pursue, to know you, tell you nice things, and make you feel loved. How could anything go wrong? This must be the one. You could never be happier.

Time goes by.

They begin telling you things about yourself that hurt. Sliding in little remarks that hit way deeper than you think they will. Things like ‘€œyou’€™re hard to handle. Most people couldn’€™t put up with it. You’€™re lucky you have me.’€ Or maybe ‘€œIf you loved me, you would go further.’€ Sometimes things like, ‘€œWell if you don’€™t let me do what I want, than I will find someone who will.’€ Small comments that build up making you feel like you have to change whom you are and that you are not good enough for someone who would treat you better. You entertain lies that this is the only person out there and if it doesn’€™t work with them, that you will be alone forever.

You picture the ‘€œperfect’€ relationship you grew up wanting. The one that was influenced by every movie, TV show, and story you read or saw. You are not willing to give up on that dream, and you tell yourself that the person you are in a relationship with will change. Your expectations of them lower so anytime they are rude or disappoint you’€¦ you make an excuse as to why and every time they do something honorable or loving, it surprises you so much that you allow your excitement to blind you from everything else they have done. Plus, lets be honest’€¦who wants to start over? But when you are honest with yourself, deep down you know that this relationship will never be the one you imagined.

Relationships are tricky and it is easy to become overwhelmed by the decision of staying with them, or breaking up. Here at RemedyLIVE we care about you. We never want you to feel alone in making a difficult decision and want to help you take the steps necessary to get the help you deserve. Chat with us today.

When Someone Who Doesn’t Deserve To Die, Dies

Often times it is said that as humans we can’€™t comprehend eternity, because our lives are so time oriented. Things always have a start and a finish. But honestly sometimes it seems harder for us to comprehend death more than eternity. All we know, all we have experienced thus far is life. All we know is life, so the idea of someone dying and no longer being apart of that world’€¦is overwhelming. Especially if it is someone you loved, a friend, a parent, maybe a sibling.

Do you know what makes it even harder? That you cared about them.

They were nice. They were a good person. You don’€™t understand because they didn’€™t deserve to die. There are so many bad people in this world, why did it have to be someone who you loved? Someone who you knew well. Someone who you watched plan out the rest of their life beside you’€¦just to have it end a couple months later. When you think about it a pain starts in your heart, works its way up your throat, and then creeps its way into your eyes. From there you have a decision to make, you can either allow the tears to fall or to push it back down and pretend like you are okay. Regardless of which one you choose’€¦for the first time you feel a sadness that is almost paralyzing. The food you spilled in your car, the guy driving slow in front of you, the teacher who graded your test poorly, and any other stress that you previously felt like was the end of the world’€¦become exceptionally small. Then the scariest thought comes in, that it could have been you. That only leads to more unanswerable questions. You have so many and you want SO badly to just understand. To understand how someone just dies and is no longer here. How someone is hit suddenly with sickness and dies a couple hours later. How someone can just be in the wrong place at the wrong time and be shot. How a young girl who was on her way home from buying her wedding dress can get hit by a car that crossed the divide, killing her instantly.

It’€™s hard. It’€™s painful. And it can be very easy to stop sharing your feelings with others, causing you to feel alone and isolated. As if you have to take on this challenging season all by yourself. But you don’€™t. Here at RemedyLIVE we know the importance of being honest with your struggles and pain. It is normal to feel sad and heartbroken, but there is hope and we would love to share it with you.

Chat with us today at the RemedyLIVE chat center where we care about you and your struggle.

 

I Am Too Far Gone For God

 

You hurt. It rooted from somewhere: rejection, loneliness, self-esteem, stress, expectations, or maybe loss. Regardless of which one it was. Regardless of which mixture it was. It got you. You lost hope. You lost purpose. You lost whatever it was that made you feel whole. You lost whatever it was that gave you reason to keep going. So you searched and you tried, everything’€¦or almost everything. Things that made you temporarily feel better and things that made you forget about that painful hole right in the center of your heart. Along the way you probably realized it was getting worse, that aching. Because when you took a break from whatever it was that seemed to be helping you, the darkness settled in, darker than before, and the isolation grew, lonelier than before. So what did you do? You tried more and you tried it more often. Doing whatever you could to forget. Forget the hurt. Forget the pain. Forget your reality.

But nothing changed. And you want to start over.

So you begin to look back, and you see every mistake you have ever made. You see everything you’€™ve done. You remember every moment of weakness. Every regret. The memories come flooding in. A little voice whispers to you that you’€™re too far gone, there is no turning around, you’€™ve messed up too bad, and that you got too lost. You look at your life and feel hopeless.

But you know that feeling you were going after’€¦the feeling of joy, peace, and purpose that you were seeking? The thing you were trying to find to fill that hole in your heart? Well it exists. And you are NEVER too far-gone to receive it.

If you or someone you know is struggling with feeling like they are too far gone and hopeless, it’€™s very important that you and them know that you are never all alone. Your life is extremely valuable and you have been given the gift of Grace that allows you to live in freedom. There is only one thing that can fill that void in your heart and its perfect love from the one who created you. There are people who want to help you, hear your heart, and share with you this hope right now in our RemedyLIVE chat center. Chat with us today!

 

 

 

I Can’t Escape Anxiety

Do you ever worry? About money, school, grades, acceptance, maybe even relationships. Getting yourself so overwhelmed while you think about every potential outcome. Overthinking EVERYTHING until the loudest voice in your head is panic repeating itself of ‘€œwhat if.’€ You know that constantly thinking about whatever it is wont change the outcome; you wish you could just release it and finally get

No Need For Anxiety some sleep. You lay awake at night thinking about it sometimes you maybe even dream about it. Your anxiety is preventing you from completing daily activities and keeps you from enjoying experiences. You see what it is doing to you and you want it to stop, but you don’€™t know how to release it or where to start. Sometimes the anxiety can build up so much so fast that it feels out of control and you might start to feel like you are alone. As if you are fighting these worries all by yourself. But you aren’€™t.

Here at RemedyLIVE we care. We know the heaviness of anxiety and panic and we are here to help. We chat, we listen, and we love.

If you or someone you know is struggling with feeling overwhelmed or anxious, it’€™s important that they get the struggle out by talking to a trusted adult who can help you take the next steps you need to get the help you deserve.

You’€™re never alone and your life is so valued. Sometimes it just takes the courage to open up to someone about how you are really doing. What you are struggling with and how you are feeling. As humans we all long to be known, because when we feel known and supported, difficulties in our lives become less intimidating. We have people who want to hear you out and help you right now in our RemedyLIVE chat center. Chat with us today!

I Feel Stuck In My Relationship

Have you ever felt stuck in a relationship? You aren’€™t happy anymore and you want to move on’€¦but being his girlfriend is familiar. You are used to it. You are used him. You know what he likes and what he doesn’€™t like. You know him and he knows you, its comfortable. So now you are left in the midst of confusion because deep down you know something isn’€™t right, that there is more for you out there and that you deserve better. You decide you want to breakup’€¦but it is not that easy. Maybe you have been dating for years and can’€™t picture not being with him. Or maybe all of your friends are his friends and you’€™re scared if you break up with him, you can’€™t be friends with them anymore. Maybe you love his family and don’€™t want to lose the relationship with them. Maybe you are even scared if you leave, he will hurt you. These thoughts, these fears can feel constricting leaving you to debate whether or not you are willing to compromise your happiness in a relationship in order to make current circumstantial issues easier. It’€™s easy to begin feeling like you are alone. But you aren’€™t. You NEVER are. And you are not stuck.

Here at RemedyLIVE we care! We are here to chat, listen, and love.

If you or someone you know is struggling with feeling stuck or trapped in a relationship, it’€™s important for you to know that there is hope. Get the stress out by talking to a trusted adult who can help you take the next steps you need to get the help you deserve.

Your life is too valuable, too important ‘€“ and perhaps you’€™ve allowed the voices in your head to convince you that no one cares. But there are people who want to help you right now in our RemedyLIVE chat center. Chat with us today!